Always moved to the beat of my own drum since the holidays in 95 I was 9 watching my uncle in the church choir Thinkin how can I be a part of it It's funny when we age pick a path & then ponder the start of it I had me a starter fit The full zip jacket wit the star on the back I'm in the front yard steppin like I'm Prime Time And I can tell you that I got to be a kid & grow up fast at the same time it's a thin line between love & hate That was 96 & we left GA, I ain't been settled down since Them holidays taught me what a family really is Some people gon love you if they don't don't take offense They just people tryna shuffle the cards they didn't pick To play at a table where they had clearly overbid My grandma favorite answer was just pray about it I had to heal before these traumas was a trending topic You gotta learn to keep your mind busy I tried to lie & go to war like them lil drummer boys in the 1860's OG said this ain't yo business I think about those no longer here every Christmas Tryna be totally aware word to Khrisnamurti I claim my baggage when them thoughts to blame somebody surface And I'mma try to teach my nephew how to carry on A new born king to see rum pa pum pum This the time of year you rest up or get in ya zone I choose the latter but balance starts to creep in the fold when I'm in traffic I see these people traveling home and I start asking/Myself if I'm too focused on goals So I just try to check in, no matter what I'm facing Even if the feelings ain't reciprocated The only guarantee I've seen is the deposit from the venue And even that depends on if ya paperwork got sent through It's always gon be more opportunities to get to But tell me who you are when that's all you can contribute to the conversation Let's share our love for each other while we got time to say it Let's teach ya cousin some spades while she got time to play it I know the vibe ain't what it used to be But this better than preparing another eulogy For somebody we know & they just drifted off too foolishly Cause these days is moving faster than they usually